Lana Banana and me

 Somedays I say I have a broken dog because she reminds me of my crazy self, I want to do everything at once, then the ball, then the mat, and then the hosepipe. She is helpful with her razor-sharp teeth, I know she will puncture the hose, but I let her do it anyway. Who will bring back these sweet memories that we make? We live for these moments, of hot sunny days and cool nights. When we have fun mostly with the water, that sadly runs out in Gauteng. But we stay hopeful and use sparingly I promise. To the left, and then the right. Back and forth and in circles she goes having the time of her life. I guess the love of Lana's insatiable thirst for the hose pipe, brings me to realize that even though she is not very friendly in the bathtub, she is a beast with running water and the mouth open and she goes in for the kill. Hook, line, and sinker. I love it! I live for days when her pellets are her friends, and she zooms passed me, and around me to breathe, before the next turn of events she has in store. What a pleasure to have her in my life.  We found each other at the right time, in the wrong place. I wish I was as carefree as she is. Not a care in the world, but the best loyalty to the ones who nurture her and protect her. The floor is full of her muddy prints dug up in some corners, and her carpet (which I had bought to look cute) is now lying mashed up on the side of my tarot table. It's the little things that make the biggest impact on your life and when I say that I am lonely is an understatement to how incredibly busy she keeps me. And strangely I would not want it any other way.  Most days we do not deserve dogs, and her being as playful and loving as she is, with tummy rubs to keep her going, I sense that we are going to be ok, even if most nights it is just the two of us. I confessed I was lonely, but I am going to change that. I am going to make a louder noise with being free and being me, through all the loss I have experienced and the pain beckoning to come to an end. I will gather up my sunflowers, and eat my French loaf, through the sunflower fields with Lana. Just Lana and me. Until you get a pet that took away your heartache, G xxx